Comments on: Winter Blahs? http://bureaucratte.greengenesis.org/?p=15 "It was the best of times, it was the blurst of times?!" Mon, 17 Aug 2026 04:31:09 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.5.1 By: Thomas http://bureaucratte.greengenesis.org/?p=15#comment-21 Thomas Sun, 11 Dec 2005 04:08:22 +0000 http://marylee.greengenesis.org/?p=15#comment-21 There was some new age type book where you had these imaginary conversations with the people from such incidents and you could forgive them, or them you and it was like a closure exercise... or exorcism. Wish I could remember the name of the book. I did it, and it was terrible reliving the experiences, but in the end, it kinda worked. There was some new age type book where you had these imaginary conversations with the people from such incidents and you could forgive them, or them you and it was like a closure exercise… or exorcism. Wish I could remember the name of the book. I did it, and it was terrible reliving the experiences, but in the end, it kinda worked.

]]> By: aleks http://bureaucratte.greengenesis.org/?p=15#comment-20 aleks Thu, 08 Dec 2005 21:31:00 +0000 http://marylee.greengenesis.org/?p=15#comment-20 I always struggle between attempting to forget versus attempting to embrace these nauseating moments. Originally I tended to go with the much less depressing strategy of quickly averting my attention before the full realization of my past retardedness sets in... but lately I’ve been allowing the full experience to unload unto my psyche. I began to do this to punish myself for my indiscretions… but now I find that it makes those awful moments more bearable… unfortunately I think that I might have in avertedly become too comfortable with them, because in the past couple of months they only seem to be piling on! I always struggle between attempting to forget versus attempting to embrace these nauseating moments. Originally I tended to go with the much less depressing strategy of quickly averting my attention before the full realization of my past retardedness sets in… but lately I’ve been allowing the full experience to unload unto my psyche. I began to do this to punish myself for my indiscretions… but now I find that it makes those awful moments more bearable… unfortunately I think that I might have in avertedly become too comfortable with them, because in the past couple of months they only seem to be piling on!

]]> By: Kristian http://bureaucratte.greengenesis.org/?p=15#comment-19 Kristian Thu, 08 Dec 2005 17:56:37 +0000 http://marylee.greengenesis.org/?p=15#comment-19 Sometimes when I'm going through that sort of nostalgic-overly-neurotic-melancholy-recall the feelings of shame and/or guilt are so intense that I have to physically shake myself out of the recollection and reground myself the present moment. I think it's a sign of retardation; I was, after all, born with 6 fingers and a defective heart. You should get that checked out. <em>hahahaha. yeah, alot of times the memories are fleeting but the emotional impact is severe. i go through this routine where i'll have the memory, feel bad, forget why i was feeling bad, force myself to think back and remember what made me feel bad, recall the memory, realize the triviality of it, feel loads better, move on. its like a mental lapse. but i seem to have hit a wave of them lately.</em> Sometimes when I’m going through that sort of nostalgic-overly-neurotic-melancholy-recall the feelings of shame and/or guilt are so intense that I have to physically shake myself out of the recollection and reground myself the present moment. I think it’s a sign of retardation; I was, after all, born with 6 fingers and a defective heart. You should get that checked out.

hahahaha. yeah, alot of times the memories are fleeting but the emotional impact is severe. i go through this routine where i’ll have the memory, feel bad, forget why i was feeling bad, force myself to think back and remember what made me feel bad, recall the memory, realize the triviality of it, feel loads better, move on. its like a mental lapse. but i seem to have hit a wave of them lately.

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